bad ending.. again? omg

ok.. arini ari ke bpe enth praktikal.. i didnt count the days since dat i try my very best to enjoy every moment i had here.. huuhhhh.. oh god... it getting worst.. hmmm nope.. it gettin tougher...

arini aku ingt nk try sumthing new.. ada kelas sivik tngktn 2.. tema 2D. so arini shud plan nk mintak dorang buat drama.bosan rrr asyik suh salin nota. shud mtk dorg duk dlm kumpulan then shud bg each group situasi yg berbeza. they need to find the solution n then express it dengn berlakon..

guess what? huh!! shud xtahu nk kata pe dah.. kelas mmg out of controll. suh buat perbincangn dlm kelas.. ada yg buat ada yg duk menyendeng ngacau kawan2 lain.. mmg panas shud.. rasa cm nk sepak je.. tp arini shud berjaya kawal rasa marah... lgsg x naik tgn.. ( HOOOYEHHH!!!!)


eventhough shud kurg puas hati dengan pe dorg perform arini, tp shud lupa yg actlly dorg dah bg the best.. i totally didnt see that... huhuhuh

for all this time, shud selalu ingt the problems come from them.. but shud lupa nk muhasabah diri,, shud sendiri ada buat salah.. i'm not a good teacher.. shud terlalu mengharap.. huh!! they such a group of amazing kids.. i almost c it.. huh!

CIKGU SAYANG KAMU!!!!!!

bad way to end my day... aka bad ending

huh...

i did sumthing really bad.. they get really nasty and so damn bad with me.. they really got me down on my feet. huh!

aku btul2 mengamuk dalm kelas rini.. sabar jelah.. dek kerana terlalu marah n i really hlg sabar.. aku walk away from the class.. seriously.. aku rasa setakt ni blm lagi ada mana2 cikgu2 praktikal or mana2 cikgu yg tingglkn kelas..

aku terlmpau marah.. hilang sabar.. mask blk guru pas dah cooldown skit aku msk blk kelas tu (kalu ikut hati xnk mask dah.. tp sbb tkt ngn pengetua aku mask gak).. hah!

cite ngn cu n cikgu2 lain.. semua terkejut.. it was really stupid.. seriously.... i need time to get on my feet back...

i was so into with my emo.. mmg sgt2 emo.. nasb baik kak oji memahami.. dia ckp byk2 la bersabar.. kelas tu mmg antara kelas yg mempunyai maslh disiplin...

i saw the faces.. they were really suprise sbb aku blah gtu je.. siap bleh ckp suka hati awak la nk jadik apa.. kalu xnk sy ajar awak p jmpa cikgu lain.. Ya Allah.. aku blh ckp gtu... bertmbh terkejut dorng bila aku mask blk.. hahahahhaahah...

and dat was really bad way to end my day... it is..

note: kak ina: " sabar jelah.. jgn ikut perasaan.. awak 5 bln je nk ngajar.. jgn marh2 sgt" huh!